Saturday, 28 March 2020
Sunday, 26 January 2020
Wednesday, 22 January 2020
Saturday, 16 November 2019
Wednesday, 6 November 2019
OLIVIA
Olivia inspi' Reira (Trapnest) - WISH
Definitely my Song & MV of the year
🔥🔥🔥
Olivia Lufkin is definitely my best discovery for this year
And its through watching an old anime called ''NANA''
Who would have thought watching that anime would led me to discover
One of my most favourite singer of all time....
Just wanted to say
I really love your music Olivia.....and you're really beautiful 😌
Glad you have a blessed and happy marriage life~
Really happy you're still around, and I could still follow you
This year 2019 has been hard for me....
Mostly sadness surrounds me, but your music soothes my soul
I like your musical world....it's so wonderful
From the awesome rock song to love song....I really love them all
Your songs & music will accompany me till the day I die.
I.L.Y. Olivia ♥
Tuesday, 15 October 2019
Wednesday, 25 September 2019
Been starting to see some old friends of my age registering for marriage....
Would also be attending one later this year....
Feels kinda scary to be honest....
How others have moved on forward so much and I'm still kinda struggling in life....
Sudden thoughts that I might not even be able to reach to that part of life....
how much preparation needed to even reach there....
All these thoughts are kinda heavy but also kinda motivating me to work harder.....
how much preparation needed to even reach there....
All these thoughts are kinda heavy but also kinda motivating me to work harder.....
It then seems like....that's actually one of the spiritual?....goal of our life?
Finding a partner....going through with the ceremony together....and receiving blessings then....
Maintaining contacts with friends and people that you get to meet in your life is also quite
a challenge.....it's not easy....especially when there's so many people one would get to meet....
I'm improving myself....
Don't know why but sometimes I would avoid bumping into someone I know....it's weird
(Something inside of me just don't feel comfortable?....)
Then again....I could open up and switch on the socialising button....and there would be no problem
talking with almost anyone....
But I guess most of the time, my button's off....
Perhaps because there's sadness in my heart....which makes me feels off most of the time....
I don't know
Would be great if people could have this understanding without me telling them....(hah)
So they won't find me weird or anything of that sort....(laugh)
I think it's also the small accidental things I've done, that sort of caused me having some of these
weird emotions as well....
Such as accidentally unfollowed and then decided to clear some people on instagram & etc....(laugh)
Maybe these kind of stuffs....plus as I'm kinda sensitive to the feelings of others, or sometimes,
I might just be thinking too much....?
Anyway, feels better after saying what I've wanted to say here....getting stuffs off my chest
Night.
Friday, 13 September 2019
Recently I've bought a mic to sort of improve my content of my game recording...
Still getting used to talking and sounding 'nice' for my recording
But I'm definitely starting to get more comfortable with it as time passes
Went for my IPPT today at Sportshub at around 5pm today
Luckily I managed to pass it with 71 points on my first attempt this year
Didn't really have much time or energy to prepare for this year's IPPT
But surprisingly I've performed better this time round compared to last year I would say
I've ran first place with a 12min+ timing which I considered as a great improvement
as compared to my past of around 13~14min++
So yeah, think I've finally nailed the breathing pattern for me when I run
And also the small trick of using the vicks inhaler for clearing stuffy nose thing....
It really works wonder I would say
So recently this year I've also enrolled in the haircutting Nitec course
Don't think I've mentioned it here yet but yeah
So far I feel it's kinda tiring and stuffs....(as usual)
I'll try to uphold my value of not giving up of course
Hopefully I could go through with this course successfully....
I'll just tell myself to learn the most out of it and try to do it step by step
in how I'm told to do and not think too much and dread about it....
Good thing is the whole school fee is free and I do not need to fork out a single cent
except with the use of my PSEA account which is great
But I think I would still need to spend money on some of the equipments I would need
to use privately on my own or at work next time such as the scissors for cutting real person
and hairdryer and etc...
Friday, 23 August 2019
Sunday, 18 August 2019
Feeling & Emotion
There's some things I would like to express....
Sadly, there isn't anyone who could lend me their ears....
That's why I'm writing here...
Feelings are something that affects me a lot
And I've came to realized that not every feelings should be followed through
Even if they are your true, honest & real feeling....for someone
I hope that unblessed feeling would be no more whenever I see that person from now on
Because it's clear to me where the heart lies....
It's kinda absurd....why sad and complicated relationship issues always happen to me....
No love, no companionship....perhaps the time is not yet right for me....
But well, I've tried follow through my feelings, and there is no regret.
Think it's what I needed to do and go through to understand and grow as a person.
(Though I think deep inside, we all wished that our true feelings would be reciprocated...)
Maybe it's kinda amazing to look at it this way and see how things are being planned out..?
It would be great now if our relationship don't turn into a bitter one.
Though I hope not to get close anymore.
As it will only bring painful emotions....especially for me
Got to let go of the unwanted feelings now.
Every year seems to have some things in stall for me.....
This year is no exception and I know next year will be too
Looking forward to a better future~
Monday, 29 July 2019
Tuesday, 23 July 2019
桜雨
Under a cherry blossom rain,
together,
we had a vain and fragile dream.
Why are you the only one
that my capricious heart
can't let go?
The love of two people
represents the evening.
Under a cherry tree
I leave there my floating heart
and walk away.
That dreamlike story
has turned out to be a joke.
Everything that happens in front of us
looks like a true miracle.
We even seem to forget to blink and to breath.
Under a cherry blossom rain,
together...
A precious scene that demands just a moment.
Even if with the dawn it seems I come out from a dream,
I'd love you even more.
The days I cannot meet you
are clear, or they are cloudy;
why the world always looked different 'till now?
I laugh, as always, but
probably I look lonely.
I made you do that face,
and I hate myself.
Under a cherry blossom rain,
together,
we had a vain and fragile dream.
A guilty and repeated lie:
sharing countless last kisses,
maybe we'll be able to end this.
It will give you new feelings,
this love will look like your first.
Who do you love, now?
Even if you struggle,
you'll be pervaded,
because this is an essential poison.
Enough, untie yourself!
Free yourself now!
Go away, far away!
Become the past.
Remove the scars from your accumulated wounds,
even if they'll come back again and again;
their feeling and the pain
are not remotely important,
because even if you're stained,
I'll still love you.
Under a cherry blossom rain,
together,
we had a vain and fragile dream.
Why are you the only one
that my capricious heart
can't let go?
The love of two people
represents the evening.
"Even if we're not destined,
staying connected,
will we ever be able to change?"
_____________________________________
This MV is really well made, and kinda catches my attention.....
It's like something I would like to have now but couldn't....
Anyway, one thing I appreciate a lot from japanese music is that
even if it's in visual-kei or rock genre, their lyrics can still be so deep and meaningful.
Sunday, 21 July 2019
Wednesday, 10 July 2019
Sunday, 5 May 2019
Friday, 3 May 2019
Tuesday, 30 April 2019
Sunday, 28 April 2019
MTG War of the Spark pre-release event
so many different Planeswalkerrsss~ |
Went to help play for my friend at the local shop for this new event
It's kinda excited and fun to see so many Planeswalker appearing, as usually they are rare & exclusive
But for this set, it just changes the whole concept and take it to a new level
So I didn't spend much money but $20 and I've gotten all these....(laugh)
Actually main thing for me is to just collect cards with beautiful artworks that I like
As I'm switching to playing Online nowadays (more efficient and saves card material)
So no point keeping too many cards inside my cupboard
I probably won't be joining other events after this onwards....
Kinda running out of space to keep them all
Also, there's more important matters I got to do...
manage to collect my favourite cards of the set in foil version |
Sunday, 14 April 2019
Finish setting up PC for streaming....its kinda easy actually
Due to a friend pushing me to complete it, and I did....thanks I guess
Hard part is definitely getting audience and revenues of course
But I don't think this is whats for me, as I already feel tired of playing too much games
Well, but I did accomplish what I had previously wanted to do...so it's still something I guess
Just that it will be like a boring leisure activity for me....
Maybe for sharing of music while I stream, playing and chatting with friends at my channel...etc
What's important now.....is probably future planning like getting a proper job.....
Which honestly is the biggest problem for me....not sure what's the best move right now....
Sadly my interview for Owndays didn't get through....well
Hopefully by this year I could settle down on this
My NP application didn't get through, not like I would expect it to be otherwise
Actually I don't really see myself going back to Poly at all, just applying for the sake of closing it
once and for all
So far for 2019 this year...
Feel like I've completed quite many things on my checklist
I would hope for even more progress this year still, with better and greater changes in life....
25 just feels like such an important point of time in life.....it's kinda scary
Saturday, 13 April 2019
TIGI
Wanted to introduce and share about my favourite hair styling products of all-time
And one that I've been using a lot nowadays....and its definitely not Gatsby....hah
It's these 2 product, from a brand named TIGI
Really amazing, especially the hair wax which could make my hairstyle looks great the whole day
Out of all the products I've ever used thus far, I think this is the only one I would
used up all and stick to using it without hesitation
Really glad to have known about this product from my hairstylist
Anyway, I'm going to attach the product link here for reference :
Another one of it is of course the hairspray which I found and bought separately
It works wonder as well and it has a nice vanilla smell?...
Probably the best hairspray fragrance I've ever used as well
When pair together, my hairstyle could last the whole day without much problem
Regardless of wind or wearing caps and stuffs, my hairstyle could just be easily molded back
It's that great and so I've decided to share them here
Alright, peace out~✌
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