Silent Hill 3 - I Want Love (Studio Mix)

Been starting to see some old friends of my age registering for marriage....

Would also be attending one later this year....

Feels kinda scary to be honest....

How others have moved on forward so much and I'm still kinda struggling in life....

Sudden thoughts that I might not even be able to reach to that part of life....

how much preparation needed to even reach there....

All these thoughts are kinda heavy but also kinda motivating me to work harder.....

It then seems like....that's actually one of the spiritual?....goal of our life?

Finding a partner....going through with the ceremony together....and receiving blessings then....

Maintaining contacts with friends and people that you get to meet in your life is also quite

a challenge.....it's not easy....especially when there's so many people one would get to meet....

I'm improving myself....

Don't know why but sometimes I would avoid bumping into someone I know....it's weird

(Something inside of me just don't feel comfortable?....)

Then again....I could open up and switch on the socialising button....and there would be no problem

talking with almost anyone....

But I guess most of the time, my button's off....

Perhaps because there's sadness in my heart....which makes me feels off most of the time....

I don't know

Would be great if people could have this understanding without me telling them....(hah)

So they won't find me weird or anything of that sort....(laugh)

I think it's also the small accidental things I've done, that sort of caused me having some of these

weird emotions as well....

Such as accidentally unfollowed and then decided to clear some people on instagram & etc....(laugh)

Maybe these kind of stuffs....plus as I'm kinda sensitive to the feelings of others, or sometimes,

I might just be thinking too much....?

Anyway, feels better after saying what I've wanted to say here....getting stuffs off my chest

Night.

Recently I've bought a mic to sort of improve my content of my game recording...

Still getting used to talking and sounding 'nice' for my recording

But I'm definitely starting to get more comfortable with it as time passes

Went for my IPPT today at Sportshub at around 5pm today

Luckily I managed to pass it with 71 points on my first attempt this year

Didn't really have much time or energy to prepare for this year's IPPT

But surprisingly I've performed better this time round compared to last year I would say

I've ran first place with a 12min+ timing which I considered as a great improvement

as compared to my past of around 13~14min++

So yeah, think I've finally nailed the breathing pattern for me when I run

And also the small trick of using the vicks inhaler for clearing stuffy nose thing....

It really works wonder I would say

So recently this year I've also enrolled in the haircutting Nitec course

Don't think I've mentioned it here yet but yeah

So far I feel it's kinda tiring and stuffs....(as usual)

I'll try to uphold my value of not giving up of course

Hopefully I could go through with this course successfully....

I'll just tell myself to learn the most out of it and try to do it step by step

in how I'm told to do and not think too much and dread about it....

Good thing is the whole school fee is free and I do not need to fork out a single cent

except with the use of my PSEA account which is great

But I think I would still need to spend money on some of the equipments I would need

to use privately on my own or at work next time such as the scissors for cutting real person

and hairdryer and etc...

Olivia Lufkin - Into The Stars

🖤.........

Feeling & Emotion

There's some things I would like to express....

Sadly, there isn't anyone who could lend me their ears....

That's why I'm writing here...

Feelings are something that affects me a lot

And I've came to realized that not every feelings should be followed through

Even if they are your true, honest & real feeling....for someone

I hope that unblessed feeling would be no more whenever I see that person from now on

Because it's clear to me where the heart lies....

It's kinda absurd....why sad and complicated relationship issues always happen to me....

No love, no companionship....perhaps the time is not yet right for me....

But well, I've tried follow through my feelings, and there is no regret.

Think it's what I needed to do and go through to understand and grow as a person.

(Though I think deep inside, we all wished that our true feelings would be reciprocated...)

Maybe it's kinda amazing to look at it this way and see how things are being planned out..?

It would be great now if our relationship don't turn into a bitter one.

Though I hope not to get close anymore.

As it will only bring painful emotions....especially for me

Got to let go of the unwanted feelings now.

Every year seems to have some things in stall for me.....

This year is no exception and I know next year will be too

Looking forward to a better future~

桜雨

Under a cherry blossom rain,

together,

we had a vain and fragile dream.

Why are you the only one

that my capricious heart

can't let go?

The love of two people

represents the evening.



Under a cherry tree

I leave there my floating heart

and walk away.

That dreamlike story

has turned out to be a joke.



Everything that happens in front of us

looks like a true miracle.

We even seem to forget to blink and to breath.

Under a cherry blossom rain,

together...

A precious scene that demands just a moment.

Even if with the dawn it seems I come out from a dream,

I'd love you even more.



The days I cannot meet you

are clear, or they are cloudy;

why the world always looked different 'till now?



I laugh, as always, but

probably I look lonely.

I made you do that face,

and I hate myself.



Under a cherry blossom rain,

together,

we had a vain and fragile dream.



A guilty and repeated lie:

sharing countless last kisses,

maybe we'll be able to end this.



It will give you new feelings,

this love will look like your first.

Who do you love, now?

Even if you struggle,

you'll be pervaded,

because this is an essential poison.

Enough, untie yourself!

Free yourself now!

Go away, far away!

Become the past.



Remove the scars from your accumulated wounds,

even if they'll come back again and again;

their feeling and the pain

are not remotely important,

because even if you're stained,

I'll still love you.



Under a cherry blossom rain,

together,

we had a vain and fragile dream.

Why are you the only one

that my capricious heart

can't let go?

The love of two people

represents the evening.



"Even if we're not destined,

staying connected,

will we ever be able to change?"


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This MV is really well made, and kinda catches my attention.....

It's like something I would like to have now but couldn't....

Anyway, one thing I appreciate a lot from japanese music is that

even if it's in visual-kei or rock genre, their lyrics can still be so deep and meaningful.

DISTRESS AND COMA

滿座 Full House

Saw this while feeding tuxedo kitty cat downstairs 😌

Actually it's while I'm trying to find a box for her to rest in

Sad to see her sitting alone in a corner.....without a comfortable place to rest in.....

MTG War of the Spark pre-release event

so many different Planeswalkerrsss~

Went to help play for my friend at the local shop for this new event

It's kinda excited and fun to see so many Planeswalker appearing, as usually they are rare & exclusive

But for this set, it just changes the whole concept and take it to a new level

So I didn't spend much money but $20 and I've gotten all these....(laugh)

Actually main thing for me is to just collect cards with beautiful artworks that I like

As I'm switching to playing Online nowadays (more efficient and saves card material)

So no point keeping too many cards inside my cupboard

I probably won't be joining other events after this onwards....

Kinda running out of space to keep them all

Also, there's more important matters I got to do...

manage to collect my favourite cards of the set in foil version

Finish setting up PC for streaming....its kinda easy actually

Due to a friend pushing me to complete it, and I did....thanks I guess

Hard part is definitely getting audience and revenues of course

But I don't think this is whats for me, as I already feel tired of playing too much games

Well, but I did accomplish what I had previously wanted to do...so it's still something I guess

Just that it will be like a boring leisure activity for me....

Maybe for sharing of music while I stream, playing and chatting with friends at my channel...etc

What's important now.....is probably future planning like getting a proper job.....

Which honestly is the biggest problem for me....not sure what's the best move right now....

Sadly my interview for Owndays didn't get through....well

Hopefully by this year I could settle down on this

My NP application didn't get through, not like I would expect it to be otherwise

Actually I don't really see myself going back to Poly at all, just applying for the sake of closing it 

once and for all

So far for 2019 this year...

Feel like I've completed quite many things on my checklist

I would hope for even more progress this year still, with better and greater changes in life....

25 just feels like such an important point of time in life.....it's kinda scary

TIGI

Wanted to introduce and share about my favourite hair styling products of all-time

And one that I've been using a lot nowadays....and its definitely not Gatsby....hah

It's these 2 product, from a brand named TIGI

Really amazing, especially the hair wax which could make my hairstyle looks great the whole day

Out of all the products I've ever used thus far, I think this is the only one I would

 used up all and stick to using it without hesitation

Really glad to have known about this product from my hairstylist

Anyway, I'm going to attach the product link here for reference :

https://www.tigi.com/bedheadformen/us/product/matte-separation-workable-wax/

Another one of it is of course the hairspray which I found and bought separately

It works wonder as well and it has a nice vanilla smell?...

Probably the best hairspray fragrance I've ever used as well

When pair together, my hairstyle could last the whole day without much problem

Regardless of wind or wearing caps and stuffs, my hairstyle could just be easily molded back

It's that great and so I've decided to share them here

Alright, peace out~✌

♪ :  李荣浩 - 耳朵 🔂

Is it getting better?....

I hope so.

Think I should be paying visit to those music bars / cafes I looked up before soon

To check out for any performing opportunities

Sometimes I feel motivated to do so.....

But most of the time now I just simply doesn't have the mood

Feels so tired...................

好久不见的猫咪！。。。刚刚放工突然在楼下看见它！

呵呵。。。

它变比较大更胖了呢。。。♡

希望它在外头能继续平平安安的。。。

(˘◡˘)

Ninjas in Pyjamas

My NiP Team Jersey has finally arrived

And I'm liking it very much...its so awesome!

My Youtube Channel

Finally, after writing about it in the past....

I've managed to setup my Youtube channel and posted the first content yesterday night

It seems kinda rush but I'm actually pretty satisfied with what I've created in such a short time

https://www.youtube.com/user/SyouSociety

Looking forward to getting my first subscriber! (laugh)