6月7日。。。（え？。。俺は3月！）

Never really thought I would be able to give this out....thought maybe it will stay in my closet forever

But I'm glad I managed to give to her....although not personally..... (´・ω・`)

I don't know that it was actually her birthday, but you know...lot's of people are helping me and I managed to receive a ride home to get it!.... ((＞д＜))

It will definitely be a memorable experience for me regardless of anything...

Thanks so much.

Just wanted to give her something...well...since I prepared this quite long ago.

Yeah....anyway I hope she likes it?

Happy Birthday.

The next morning shift will be my last shift already.....

I'm actually thinking about lots of stuff every time....

Lots of stuff going on in my mind....like getting a girlfriend....it's not that simple.

I will think a lot, like about the future and stuffs....my situations...and I can't really tell myself to go and love someone when I'm still haven't secure a job and have a stable future or something....

And emotionally, of course there are something else that bothers me as well.....

It's hard.....

But when everything comes down, I want to have someone by my side....

I think that is the most important thing.

Days on my own always seemed so dark and gloomy....

Going to work probably seems better with people around....

Even though when majority of the people can't wait to not work....

But for me it's kinda different....it's better to have something to do.

I guess that's how bad it tells of my situation huh?....

It's like living in this world alone....

However...

Looking at myself in the mirror seems to always give me hope....

And I'm grateful for that~(laugh)

   その目は互いを認めるため

                                                  那双眼是为了确认彼此而存在

              その声は想いを伝えるため

                     

                                                                那声音是为了传达情感而存在

      その手は大事な人とつなぐためにある

                               那双手则是为了握住重要的人而存在的

BGM : EGOIST - The Everlasting Guilty Crown

久しぶりの。。。

Attended one of my old classmate's Graduation today

Thanks to the invitation from a classmate I met recently while on duty

Had a really good and fun time and....I really missed it quite a lot

Went to have our dinner at an authentic Indian cuisine food stall

Called Al Azhar or something?....I'm not really sure now

But yeah, the food is actually pretty good even though I seldom would try out Indian food except Prata

After that, we went to have deserts ice cream at a nearby place shown above

It's pretty interesting and I think we saw one of the mediacorp's artist there as well?....

the Romeo guy if I'm not wrong

Had a fun and good time chatting with everyone and I'm really happy

After that, me and 2 more person go for overtime playing bowling at HomeTeam NS till late night

But well, it's convenient now since we have a driver with us...(laugh)

Yeap, it's really great

I kinda hope we will be able to meet up like this more often from now on

There's quite a lot of nice photos taken today, but currently I'm not able to get them yet

But when I do, I will definitely try putting them up, maybe here or on facebook

Anyway, despite me seemingly being the only one left who hasn't graduated from Poly...

I'm really glad that there's no such bad feelings directed towards me from anyone

It's kinda great to have these friends actually.....

Ok that's all for tonight, had a really great time

Thanks & Goodnight ✩

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Alright, I've got it

Here's some pictures from yesterday~

Good ol' pals from Class 4-1~

Went to my team chalet today at Pasir Ris.

Comfortable room, will be nice to sleep in.

But too bad we are working tomorrow morning, definitely can't sleepover.

When I reach the place, there really isn't really much people there yet, and so I went to the beach for a short while...

It's been quite long since I last came here...

Can't remember when already......

Anyway, went back to the house shortly after, and soon follow up by night BBQ.

Even though it's a long trip,

Still kinda glad that I came...definitely feels better talking and interacting with the people around.

はまって。。。

It feels like it's been quite a long time since I'm last so infatuated with an artiste's music and person.

The last one is Utada Hikaru I think?

Well, actually both of us share some similarities with that as well....(laugh)

Her name is Yasuda Rei (安田 レイ) or Rachel Rhodes.

Usually I only like girls that have a bit of 'meat', but seeing her really changes that.

She's really pretty.

Anyway, what I wanted to say is...

If not for her songs, I think my days wouldn't have been so great then...

I wouldn't be feeling any happiness at all probably...

It's because of her music, it totally helps transform my day into a wonderful one and sets my mood onto the positive track, and I really thank her for that.

It is also her who gives me the strength to take the brave step out on my own.

So much thanks for her that I decided to go HMV to buy her album earlier today.

But to my disappointment, it's not on the shelf, and doesn't seem to be available in any of the CD shops here...

Either way, I will keep a lookout for it.

Meanwhile, I will keep supporting all her music for sure!

凄い好きですよ！

My 2 years of National Service is coming to an end...

Although I always hear people saying they can't wait to ORD and get out, hate NS and stuffs.

Actually I'm grateful for it.

Because it actually helps me reorganize my life back.

I'm able to met new people, understand new things, and discover new directions.

Compared to the past, where I worked those unstably part-time job, and not having enough money some point in time or another...

Without any friends or any advice....life is really tough.

I don't want live that kind of life again...

Although so far there hasn't been any successful results in my applications and stuffs,

I don't think I will give up.

Though finding job in the meantime could be a problem again, the real pressure comes from my mother actually...and I'm worried about that......

Regardless of anything, I will try my best.

WILL

Made a call to Avex Singapore earlier.

I manage to speak to the GM, which is a Japanese but he can speak English as well.

It's really nervous....I doesn't seem to be able to speak well.

I've even prepared Japanese words which I feel I might need to use during the talk.

But in the end, I didn't manage to use any of them at all.....(bitter laugh)

Perhaps it would be better if I converse with him in Japanese?

I didn't think I have present myself well enough...

Even though the answers couldn't be like what I really hope for,

I'm satisfied with it, after thinking about what he said.

I were told to call him back anytime, whenever I'm ready, to have something to show and when I'm ready.

And I'm glad he said he's not excluding the possibilities of my proposal.

If only I have presented myself well enough, speak better, maybe a meet up would be possible?...

If only assessment could be make this way...

Initially, I wanted to make a call next week, after the Japan's Golden Week.

Feeling that maybe the important people might not be around.

But nonetheless, I decided to make a call because I feel that the longer I drag,

the courage and will to call would dwindle more and more,

and in the end I might not have done it.

But I'm glad I did.

Because I've done something I wouldn't be regretting about not doing.

Tried visiting Avex Singapore earlier.

Don't know why but it just keeps popping up in my mind......

And so I decided to do it.

Well, after reaching the area, I managed to find the building that it is located in,

but then I realised that there are a lot of different companies inside as well.

There are security gantries at the lobby and not everyone could access to the elevator.

I think an appointment or such would be needed to be able to visit the place.

I think I will try contacting.

Maybe this sounds crazy...

But one thing is true, we only live once.

To soar to a height unreachable by anyone!

僕の未来は。。。眩しく見えない。

俺の能力は信じてだから。。。

The answer lies within me.

BGM : 安田レイ - Mirror

風景画は

There is no colour

A colourless landscape

BGM : HYDE - Shallow Sleep

It's a Rainie day today......

出门了不久就下起了雨。。。

不知道要去哪里好。。。

想搭巴士。。。

然后就来到了这里了。

平常很多人出出入入的地方，但今天来时却是没什么人的。。。

那种感觉蛮好的。

好烦恼。。。

只从昨天发现申请的工作没成功。。。

好奇怪，一切都做得很好，服役工作上，面试什么的都感觉很好很顺利，

不知道为什么会有这样的结果。。。

真的好懊恼。。。

没什么人可以说。。。特别是家人吧

感觉跟母亲说，她也只会用不好的话语来回复。。。

然后让我感到更糟，更多压力

最担心的当然就是又提起什么不管叫我搬出去的那些话。。。

好讨厌听到那些。。。

怎么办才好。。。好像不管我怎么想都想不到的答案。

感觉我就不想再重新申请了，感觉这样做就没意思了。

其实呢。。。

没成功。。。好像在某些方面会让我感到轻松。。。

但是。。。这样我好像又失去了方向。。。

どしゃぶりの女

只是第一个故事  ‘どしゃぶりの女’ 。


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原本只是被第一个故事所吸引，

但是后来几天因为真的很闷，便也看完了整个影片。

蛮不错的。

早早洗碗盘时，看到红色的月亮。。。
但是现在已经没了。


每次在清理食物时，要把剩下的饭菜倒掉时，我就会觉得浪费。。。
想如果能把这一些饭菜，不管多还是少，喂给外头的那些流浪猫还是狗，
都能让他们好好的吃饱了。。。就觉得蛮过意不去的。

一直都想那么做。。。如果我一个人住时。。。
去楼下寻找哪里有流浪的动物。。。然后给它们吃。。过了差不多一个小时再回来收拾。
然后久而久之，可能它们就会每次在那个时间在那里等了。
渐渐地。。。就把它们带到比较方便的地方？。。。然后按时去这样喂它们。
感觉还蛮不错的？

然后每次看见红色的月亮时，
我就会想到 Castlevania Aria of Sorrow 的情节。。。
在血红的月亮中就隐藏着传说中吸血鬼的城堡。。。
然后希望自己会被吸进去里面。。。在里头探险。。。呵。

食物不错，蛋塔很好吃～

可能是被母亲一直说，害我都觉得自己没有去国会大厦排队向李光耀致敬有点过意不去的感觉。。。

但是她都不知道我私底下已经对他表达出敬意了，然后警察那边也有办类似的活动。

还说得我好像很糟似的，不会饮水思源什么的。

唉。。。

有点伤感啊。。。到现在，父母都还不了解我是个怎样的人。

Condolences to Mr. Lee Kuan Yew

Lee Kuan Yew is a really respectable man.
I think we can safely say that without his effort, Singapore will not be like what it is today.
I'm really glad we didn't become a communist country and we gained independence.
This is really important.
All of his policy are really good and farsighted.
The Bilingual Learning policy....National Service to not only let Singapore has it's own defense and deterence,
but also improves racial relationships.

Watching the TV program showing what he has done for Singapore really touches my heart.
Even though I don't like cheesy talks....but yeah.

We have become one of the world's prosperous country now.
A bustling metropolis....just like you said.
From a small country with nothing, to something like this.
I'm actually really proud of Singapore, and proud to be a Singaporean.


Thank you.


李光耀是一个非常值得敬佩的人。
我觉得我们可以直呼说，如果没有他的努力，新加坡就不会有今天的成就。
我很庆幸我们没有变成共产党的国家，我们获得了独立。
这个真的很重要。
他所有的政策都非常的好，非常的有远见。
双语学习政策。。。国民服役，不只是让新加坡能够靠自己的力量保护自己的土地，同时也能够促进种族之间的和谐。

现在看着电视播出他过去所为新加坡的努力与贡献，真的感动到了我。

我们现在已在世界上变成了非常繁荣的国家。
一个繁华的大都市。。。就像你所说的。
从一个开始什么资源都没有的小国，变成像现在这样。
其实我真的为新加坡感到骄傲，也为自己是一位新加坡公民而感到自豪。


谢谢你。

credit : http://global.britannica.com/EBchecked/topic/334621/Lee-Kuan-Yew

3月7日

今天是我的生日，但是。。。我并不开心。

今年的我没有买什么东西给自己，然后目前也没有收到什么东西。

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Happy Birthday to Me.

A9 「Phoenix」

Alice Nine Reborn......

This song is too awesome I have to share it.

睡觉之前，就那么幸运转到了100银币，刚好就足够买这个高窗了。

喜欢这样的景色。。。

晚安。

Lunar New Year 2015

虽然有点迟了，但我想在这边说声

新年快乐～

这是我今天下午吃的午餐，在土司工坊。

吃得很饱，面包很好吃。

早上和家人出去吃麦当劳早餐，然后再过去奶奶家拜年。

但是早上到哪里也没什么人在，父母和一些亲戚都先去庙拜拜。

也有人选择工作。

今天在那里如果没电脑玩，一定会很闷。

一整天几乎都在玩电脑游戏。。。好没气氛的感觉。。。（~_~）

今年对我会是很重要的一年吧。。。

我希望一切都能有最好的结果！

BGM : amazarashi - 季節は次々死んでいく