Asymmetry

今天到了便宜的理发店剪了一下头发

虽然之前也有为自己剪，但后面就不行

然后发现其实还不错

或许以后在这方面可以省下来了

       

老问题又来了，显示在镜子/ 相机的我，并不是人们所看见的我。。对吧

而是反过来的样子

所以说，是这样子的？。。

比较喜欢镜子里看到的那一面。。。或许可能看惯了

相机拍了拍，发现好像有蛮大的落差

因为我的脸部两面，好像并不完全对称

可能因为长年睡姿不够好或什么，导致的？

可以的话，希望以后可以多调整，平衡好

New Beginnings

 

Yesterday I've finally returned all the working stuffs and completed my resignation

Theres certainly some fond memories of working there for quite a few years

The people whom I work with and places I've been to, it's really nice

But recent times, due to the pandemic issue, jobs are scarce and inconvenient

It's hard to sustain a living as a part-timer, thus, I think it's best to leave after securing a better job

Just looking forward to the followups that would come next....🌲

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抒发文 I

虽然心情还没恢复。。。

还有些难以表达的事情。。。。

目前储蓄用完了 🚫

吃饭饭的也没钱了。。。所以暂时没能买灌灌喂猫猫

哈。。。暂时。。。

已尽量挤出省有的几块钱，买一两个灌灌帮忙撑一撑

但是，我很感谢它们。。。一直都记得我。。。

特别是上面这个。。。呵呵

我还记得当初也到了大老远为它买药，然后医好了它当时严重咳咳的症状

都很开心，然后它也一直都记得我

我也是一直都记得它，还有它会去的一些地方，在不同的情况下

我有跟它说保佑我申请当警察成功，过后就能够买多多灌灌来常喂它们

结果也实现了~🎉

目前就等手续办完，接着就不会那么辛苦了

没人好说什么话。。。很多时候都是这样。。。

没人了解，父母也一样

不了解我，然后某时候听到一些评论。。。更让我生气

大胃王猫猫也消失好久了。。。

希望它是平安的

还有它。。。虽然很久很久没见了。。。

以前在关卡工作的时候。。。最让我留念的猫猫。。。

我真心希望有人注意到了它，然后有常常喂它。。。

以前看到它那么瘦，心里就好难受

然后我也没有猫食给它，反而只能喂它人吃的饭饭。。。

最让我难忘的，就是记得有一个夜班

我如往常自己一个人做一个人的职位。。。

自己跟自己说着一些心事。。。。

很多伤心的感受。。。

接着，它就在不远处出现了！

而且还走来我这边。。。陪着我。。。

让我好欣慰。。。

不会忘记的，有些事情真的不会忘记的。。。。

我也还记得当初是怎么开始喂这些猫猫的。。。

记得某个雷雨天。。。当时音乐学校放学回家。。。

发现这只猫自己在脚车旁发呆。。。

很难过，因此就开始了，喂它们，秀秀它们，的旅程

我可能在这里也回味了几次

也有些新的猫猫出现

谢谢

希望你们能继续保佑我一切顺利 🤞

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话说，明天就是我宣布离职的日子，也就是做了蛮久的辅助警工作

要准备转换为真正的警官了 👮

Chrono Trigger - relaxing music sleep [ost]

礼物包裹消息

 

刚刚查了看，发现早前寄的礼物显示输送失败。。。

到了那边的邮局，但是没有成功送到地址？。。。

所以全部的东西就这样不见了。。。？

准备的礼物。。。。就这样没了？

感觉就好失落。。。

是不是因为忘了写名字跟联络号码在礼物外面。。。可恶当时的柜台员也没提醒

（叹。。。。。）

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我刚打了电话过去台湾邮局询问

目前礼物是在 ‘民雄雙福郵局’

因为好像家里没人，所以没成功。。。？

如果你看到了，希望来得及去拿。。。

青色包装的盒子

需要身份证跟签名就能接收

物品号码是 ：RC737223464SG

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So Called Love Song

【天海 祐希】源氏公子

Sayuri Sugawara - 03 Close To You

Photography

 

最近我想到了一件事

就是一件我好像会合适的一个工作

就是拍照当摄影师之类的

因为我一直很欣赏着漂亮美丽的东西

我相信所有摄影师也都是，而且也相信自己的美感

特别是拿着相机遮住脸拍照的时候，会有种安全，不会做成焦点的感觉

在人多的场合，我还蛮想喜欢这样的感觉

就是背着相机在场里，不会有人注意着你

然后就可以觉得比较自在的行动？。。。呵

当然此时也顺便记载着那个特别的一天

好，先别说为工作

因为这领域上也有分很多种，从动物户外大自然到婚纱演唱会场合等等等

所以先别深入探讨工作的事情

就先说成为一个嗜好

像是有空可以做的事。。。又增加了一件！

好像当两人在一起时

突然想做什么。。。

可以出去拍照！

感觉不是好棒吗。。。。我越想就越喜欢了。。。

看这个图。。。好漂亮。。。

那个山上。。。森林里头有着灯光道路。。。到山顶。。。

是游乐园酒店之类的在上面吗？。。。

感觉就好梦幻，会是好美丽的场景。。。。

突然之间就陶醉在其中。。。

需要钱之类的想法就浮现了出来

好，就写到这里吧

Project Artist : THE SxPLAY・菅原紗由理

 

a.k.a. Sayuri Sugawara

今天好像是属于 菅原紗由理 的日子

也是国庆日，国家生日，8月9日

虽然现在写时，已经过去了

也很碰巧，一个人在外面时

听着她的歌曲

突然就有了感觉，想剪辑一个她的 Project 短片

结果花了差不多剩下的午后时间，完成了它

我是蛮满意的，虽然还看得到有可以进步的空间

话说，我听她的音乐也有好像11年了

从 FFXIII 的歌曲而认识她到现在

很特别，因为这也是我目前直播未完成的游戏！

（6年前的今天）

很巧妙的发现竟然过去也是差不多这个时候听她的歌曲。。。

好像一种季节的感觉。。。

然后巧妙的，我也办了她的会员卡

原本想下载她网站的图片，发现需要登记什么的

接着就顺便办了

会费很便宜

不知道会不会寄一张真的卡过来，蛮期待的。。。

最后当然就分享制作的短片 ：

Have a great day~

雪の華 - 華風月(鈴華ゆう子)

Naturopathy

Just read about an article about the infection problem I had.

Search it up in chinese and it actually has better articles explaining in a really detailed manner why it happens and what causes it, cures and etc.

Which in everything it says is really convincing.

I don't really like the whole system of ''Hospital'' and the western medicine practice you would call it.

I hate to taking all those antibiotics and pills which I deemly considered as something that is bad for our body. It's like drugs or poison. It's unnatural and I don't see it as the True Cure.

On the other hand, I'm more towards the chinese practices of herbal medicines and cures which relies on what's found and created from the natural substances of this world.

So I find it really important and essential if we could learn about different illnesss and symptoms, and the using the means of  ''Natural Cure'' for it.

So for example, for coughing, there would be those home-remedies information out there regarding how to cure it, without relying on the use of taking drugs medicines.

I believe it is true so for every illness in this world, it's just how knowledgeable one is, to be able to find it or discover it.

I remember there's this rare book from a really prodigious Chinese physician named Hua Tuo (華佗) but it's lost in time. Apparently this book contained many natural cures and treatment to all the different diseases that is out there in the world at his times.

It would be utmost amazing to be able to discover any details about some of the contents if able to, which I'll try to.

Right now in this world structure, the Hospital, to me, has become a system of convenience, and it's really costly for basically everything. Be it staying in the ward, doing ultra-sound scans, all of these really costs such an absurd amount of money which I personally resented.

All of these, seems like a system to support the ludicrous and high payout for all those working in the sectors.

I might not be phrasing it really well but I hope you know what I meant.

How expensive it is to actually be able to studied all the way to become a doctor...?

So as an equivalent exchange, it's something like that.

Back to my issue.

Apparently, I found out what causes me to have this infection now.

It's said to be due to prolonged sitting and blood circulation issue.

This is probably chronic, which means it takes time to gradually heal up.

And it has high recurring rate if measures are not taken properly.

In other words, I'll need to fix my lifestyle habit a bit, and really try not to sit too long....which is hard because I'm an avid gamer.

Also increasing the no.of times to exercise, and it would be best to implement running.

That's all the update I have, and thankfully, I think it's not that bad right now after knowing more about it.

Though, I would hope to learn more about relavant stuffs because I don't want to submit or conform the systems or norms of taking generic drug medicines or going to hospital to be ''healthy'' again.

I always think it's a down spiral effect on our health relying on those artificial drug medicines.

Doctors themselves probably know as well.

But most of them just can't or unable to offer you any useful advice besides what they usually does.

Think about it, when civilisation begins, is there such things as Hospital? Panedol?

The answer is No.

And do people just die when they have fever in the past?

No as well, there's a way to truly cure it and also reason for it to happen.

In that sense, I believe that Natural Cure exists for almost everything.

Some of them might be rare, really rare....so it's not really easy to learn about it....

But they exists, and that's what I feel.

今日仕事の場所

    

It's a good day working today....went to new places with nice colleagues

Able to go and see more places with nice sceneries too....

Although still having some troubled thoughts....perhaps all of it will slowly get better

Recently

    

Things have gotten a turn for the better....thankfully

Feels kinda like some of my prayers have been answered....

My health is in good condition and there's no other complications

Really grateful for this outcome

Also, I've just started working after almost 2 months of inactivity

Need to wake up really early and go far away to work, but it's for the better

Now I could really sleep soundly after returning home from a tiring day

The best thing so far is that the jobscope, colleagues and pay is actually good

Feels pretty good roving around different areas again, seeing and checking things outside

Looking forward to getting my pay soon and settle lots of stuffs on my checklist

はゃとちり x 花束を君に

Spent some time editing and getting the audio to fit into the video

But sadly....I couldn't post this up anywhere due to copyright issues....

I really like this.

So I'll instead post it here at my little corner

Hoping someone would enjoy and liked this 🎶🎞️ as well

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(....maybe I could be a good editor or something?)

Recently 🐻 went live 👏

Hear her talking about her kid....think many of my idol now has kids....😞 haha

Cuz I cut my hair before the lock, so it's still not that bad

Nothing new, still around

Needs to find a job soon to work though....

2020

Digimon Frontier - An Endless Tale

OLIVIA

Olivia inspi' Reira (Trapnest) - WISH

Definitely my Song & MV of the year

🔥🔥🔥


Olivia Lufkin is definitely my best discovery for this year

And its through watching an old anime called ''NANA''

Who would have thought watching that anime would led me to discover

One of my most favourite singer of all time....

Just wanted to say

I really love your music Olivia.....and you're really beautiful 😌

Glad you have a blessed and happy marriage life~

Really happy you're still around, and I could still follow you

This year 2019 has been hard for me....

Mostly sadness surrounds me, but your music soothes my soul

I like your musical world....it's so wonderful

From the awesome rock song to love song....I really love them all

Your songs & music will accompany me till the day I die.

I.L.Y. Olivia ♥

Silent Hill 3 - I Want Love (Studio Mix)

Been starting to see some old friends of my age registering for marriage....

Would also be attending one later this year....

Feels kinda scary to be honest....

How others have moved on forward so much and I'm still kinda struggling in life....

Sudden thoughts that I might not even be able to reach to that part of life....

how much preparation needed to even reach there....

All these thoughts are kinda heavy but also kinda motivating me to work harder.....

It then seems like....that's actually one of the spiritual?....goal of our life?

Finding a partner....going through with the ceremony together....and receiving blessings then....

Maintaining contacts with friends and people that you get to meet in your life is also quite

a challenge.....it's not easy....especially when there's so many people one would get to meet....

I'm improving myself....

Don't know why but sometimes I would avoid bumping into someone I know....it's weird

(Something inside of me just don't feel comfortable?....)

Then again....I could open up and switch on the socialising button....and there would be no problem

talking with almost anyone....

But I guess most of the time, my button's off....

Perhaps because there's sadness in my heart....which makes me feels off most of the time....

I don't know

Would be great if people could have this understanding without me telling them....(hah)

So they won't find me weird or anything of that sort....(laugh)

I think it's also the small accidental things I've done, that sort of caused me having some of these

weird emotions as well....

Such as accidentally unfollowed and then decided to clear some people on instagram & etc....(laugh)

Maybe these kind of stuffs....plus as I'm kinda sensitive to the feelings of others, or sometimes,

I might just be thinking too much....?

Anyway, feels better after saying what I've wanted to say here....getting stuffs off my chest

Night.

Recently I've bought a mic to sort of improve my content of my game recording...

Still getting used to talking and sounding 'nice' for my recording

But I'm definitely starting to get more comfortable with it as time passes

Went for my IPPT today at Sportshub at around 5pm today

Luckily I managed to pass it with 71 points on my first attempt this year

Didn't really have much time or energy to prepare for this year's IPPT

But surprisingly I've performed better this time round compared to last year I would say

I've ran first place with a 12min+ timing which I considered as a great improvement

as compared to my past of around 13~14min++

So yeah, think I've finally nailed the breathing pattern for me when I run

And also the small trick of using the vicks inhaler for clearing stuffy nose thing....

It really works wonder I would say

So recently this year I've also enrolled in the haircutting Nitec course

Don't think I've mentioned it here yet but yeah

So far I feel it's kinda tiring and stuffs....(as usual)

I'll try to uphold my value of not giving up of course

Hopefully I could go through with this course successfully....

I'll just tell myself to learn the most out of it and try to do it step by step

in how I'm told to do and not think too much and dread about it....

Good thing is the whole school fee is free and I do not need to fork out a single cent

except with the use of my PSEA account which is great

But I think I would still need to spend money on some of the equipments I would need

to use privately on my own or at work next time such as the scissors for cutting real person

and hairdryer and etc...

Olivia Lufkin - Into The Stars

🖤.........

Feeling & Emotion

There's some things I would like to express....

Sadly, there isn't anyone who could lend me their ears....

That's why I'm writing here...

Feelings are something that affects me a lot

And I've came to realized that not every feelings should be followed through

Even if they are your true, honest & real feeling....for someone

I hope that unblessed feeling would be no more whenever I see that person from now on

Because it's clear to me where the heart lies....

It's kinda absurd....why sad and complicated relationship issues always happen to me....

No love, no companionship....perhaps the time is not yet right for me....

But well, I've tried follow through my feelings, and there is no regret.

Think it's what I needed to do and go through to understand and grow as a person.

(Though I think deep inside, we all wished that our true feelings would be reciprocated...)

Maybe it's kinda amazing to look at it this way and see how things are being planned out..?

It would be great now if our relationship don't turn into a bitter one.

Though I hope not to get close anymore.

As it will only bring painful emotions....especially for me

Got to let go of the unwanted feelings now.

Every year seems to have some things in stall for me.....

This year is no exception and I know next year will be too

Looking forward to a better future~

桜雨

Under a cherry blossom rain,

together,

we had a vain and fragile dream.

Why are you the only one

that my capricious heart

can't let go?

The love of two people

represents the evening.



Under a cherry tree

I leave there my floating heart

and walk away.

That dreamlike story

has turned out to be a joke.



Everything that happens in front of us

looks like a true miracle.

We even seem to forget to blink and to breath.

Under a cherry blossom rain,

together...

A precious scene that demands just a moment.

Even if with the dawn it seems I come out from a dream,

I'd love you even more.



The days I cannot meet you

are clear, or they are cloudy;

why the world always looked different 'till now?



I laugh, as always, but

probably I look lonely.

I made you do that face,

and I hate myself.



Under a cherry blossom rain,

together,

we had a vain and fragile dream.



A guilty and repeated lie:

sharing countless last kisses,

maybe we'll be able to end this.



It will give you new feelings,

this love will look like your first.

Who do you love, now?

Even if you struggle,

you'll be pervaded,

because this is an essential poison.

Enough, untie yourself!

Free yourself now!

Go away, far away!

Become the past.



Remove the scars from your accumulated wounds,

even if they'll come back again and again;

their feeling and the pain

are not remotely important,

because even if you're stained,

I'll still love you.



Under a cherry blossom rain,

together,

we had a vain and fragile dream.

Why are you the only one

that my capricious heart

can't let go?

The love of two people

represents the evening.



"Even if we're not destined,

staying connected,

will we ever be able to change?"


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This MV is really well made, and kinda catches my attention.....

It's like something I would like to have now but couldn't....

Anyway, one thing I appreciate a lot from japanese music is that

even if it's in visual-kei or rock genre, their lyrics can still be so deep and meaningful.

DISTRESS AND COMA

滿座 Full House

Saw this while feeding tuxedo kitty cat downstairs 😌

Actually it's while I'm trying to find a box for her to rest in

Sad to see her sitting alone in a corner.....without a comfortable place to rest in.....

MTG War of the Spark pre-release event

so many different Planeswalkerrsss~

Went to help play for my friend at the local shop for this new event

It's kinda excited and fun to see so many Planeswalker appearing, as usually they are rare & exclusive

But for this set, it just changes the whole concept and take it to a new level

So I didn't spend much money but $20 and I've gotten all these....(laugh)

Actually main thing for me is to just collect cards with beautiful artworks that I like

As I'm switching to playing Online nowadays (more efficient and saves card material)

So no point keeping too many cards inside my cupboard

I probably won't be joining other events after this onwards....

Kinda running out of space to keep them all

Also, there's more important matters I got to do...

manage to collect my favourite cards of the set in foil version