Today, I thought it will be  a relaxing day for me...and obviously seeing how I write, it is not.  / A \
I slept kinda too much today....and when I woke up, I actually got a flu 
Ah...still have to work with a sneazing nose, life still sucks for me.

Maybe I'm a failure at handling girls? Yea I know, I always do...thats why I still don't even have a female friends in my life even till now...
In my handphone contacts, I've only message to my sister and other than that, no more female contatcts already... of course, not counting teachers and such.
Is it because the way my parents brought me up that makes me so shy with girls?
But I'm very happy when pretty girls treat me well 

I wonder if my life will always be so sucking 
Alright thats all for today, Goodnight Everyone  


-Edited-
I think its my own problem sometimes...
Actually, my sister loves me too much that I can't feel it. 0 30
Well, when I saw my sister in the future, and she is in her make-up form, I will kiss her all day and hug her to sleep and... ●* U *●
Just kidding, I will hug her no matter how she looks ^O^
I just love you too much, I don't care~! hmph~! XDD

the GazettE New Look : REMEMBER THE URGE

RUKI

URUHA

AOI

REITA

KAI

the GazettE finally started activities again!
This time, they break out 3 exciting news with a launch of their new single 'REMEMBER THE URGE' and also a brand new album 'TOXIC' ! Last but not least, A 2011 Live Tour ' VENEMOUS CELL' !~
Again, these people will rock the Visual kei scene and take charge as the head once again...

Gazerock Is Not Dead.

Music & Nature

Found a quiet and secret place amidst the crowded shopping centre...

                              I just love finding places like this on my own.

The moon yesterday, seems to be luring me to see it...seems to be telling me : 'I will help you ease your emotions a little...'

Indeed, I feel so much better listening to my classic best japanese musics while gazing at the moon...
My beautiful memories and fantasy seems to be flooding back, I love it...

I find the background light very beautiful~✮
While sitting at the pony and looking around, my fantasy creativity seems to be working again, haha.
Seems like I have not lost 'it'.

That night, I especially want to thank, TiA, Kana Nishino, YUI, Sayuri Sugawara, Ruppina, & Hikaru Utada for your music which created the beautiful image in my mind while listening to them.
Thanks for your music that accompanies me throughout the night...perhaps even throughout my life...

ViViD BLUE PV Type B

山口リサ「Never Ever～今だけでも～」トレーラー

雨のMessage

Woke up at night and saw my sis 's message... don't feel like replying....
Hearing the sound of rain....I look outside...it is raining heavily indeed...

ViVid - Blue [PV]

Shin 's movement in this MV is not as daring and sharp as Shou's , nevertheless, this song is quite good to explode on Live Concerts.
Always hope I could show my own move styles in MV...

My Territory

VORTEX 's belt  (´ε｀ )

Para:noir - the RED [PV]

我想剪头发了，但是呢，有人叫我流长一点，就能剪那些好看的发型了。
我想剪将的 BLUE FLAME 短发型，但其实，我还不够长耶，前面要更长。
所以我觉得， 松下 優也上面的发型也很不错~？


-编辑-
后来还是被建议，跟着将的照片剪了 囧

之前：

之后：

好像没什么变化哦~！
哈哈，其实是有点啦，只是，手机拍不出。
而且，我觉得，手机拍照时，我的样子会比较不好看？
哈哈，今天，因为没预约，所以得等一个小时， 当我去厕所时，发现。。。其实没剪也不要紧吧，还能省钱，但还是去了 xP

我找不到礼物呢 0 30
惨了惨了，我要更努力想和找才行！！
（说溜嘴了\( O o O) /  哈哈哈 )
我真的好想给嘛。。。忍不住了啦~

抱住了

妹妹，

有你在我身旁，我真的觉得自己，很幸福，很满足了。
你才不会很没用呢。。。你给了我好多的爱。。。好多。。。一般人都不会给我的呢。
我也想让你，幸福又快乐的活下去。。。跟我一起？ 哈哈。。
就说现在。。。只要跟你开心的对话。。。心情就很好哦。

就算我再次变冷淡了。。。我也希望你能记得，我心里真的是很爱你的。

但是，我能确定。。。当我们见面时，什么问题都会没了！ 哈。

只要你不介意的话。。。什么都好~

♥

我的占有欲可是很强的哦 ◔ ω ◔
你确定要跟我吗。。。
哈，当然，不是神经神经的那种~
但我要的 爱 是很亲近的呢 ♥♥
如果还是想要。。。就来抱住我吧~ ◕  3◕

我对你。。。冷冷淡淡，你还是会照样的来找我说话。。。

我有时候， 就像这样，会讨厌自己的行为，但却还是照样的去做，就好像是想毁掉东西，
让自己回去一个人的世界里。。。没人会想管我。
我应该每次都会有这种感觉吧。
可能真的有人，是根本不需要任何人的。
而且，需要的话，就只是一种暂时的尝试或也有可能是谎言。

我要的是。。。
答案，我会自己去寻找。。

Today, while I'm serving food, a lady called on me to help her order food.
Since I'm free, I walked over to help her.
When she opened her mouth and speak, I'm so attracted to her voice~ U 口 U
Her voice sounds so innocent and pure....ahh, so nice~ U 口 U
Haha, oh, I forgot my life motto, being happy is the most important! I will work part time again and enjoy my life~

Woohoo! xD

Life is kinda fuck up man...
I have to work to death almost everyday and now I have trouble sleeping every night?!
My mood now is so fucking bad.
Moreover, I'm beaten by some insects at night every few days...
@#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$%^&*

And why am I working so hard for? I have no goals anyway.

Moran 2011.7.20「トリコロール」CD shop店頭用 ver.

Nice~

Bought some new clothes today, so happy hahaha.

Well, I buy cheap ones of course, now I have to work hard to save money

~ 3~

Not bad right? Haha.

Anyway, my hair is kinda awkward at the front, think I will go cut when I get my pay next month ^o^ /

頑張って～！

我的气色好象不太好 X oX

P.S. : My left eye is not nice...sadly, my fringe covers my right eye which is the nice one. X~ X

P.S. : 我的左眼不好看。。。但流海却盖住右眼。。那个比较好看的眼睛。

Don't know why...I've always feel so worried of the future...

I'm so tired working nowadays....especially while I'm full-time...I have to earn money to pay my own rent, school fees, and almost everything...I wonder how long it would last...

Hikaru Utada, I've always see your UH Collection video clips during late midnight in the past while Im feeling sad and down, and your videos, makings,  have never fail to cheer me up...but even now...I can't see them when I wanted to...Your musics have helped in creating a beautiful world in my mind...and I will always thank and admire you as an amazing musician.

Even though my future may be dark, I push onwards...

Even though, I may not be myself with anyone around...I will always be myself when I'm alone.

真是美丽的天空。。。跟妹妹一直在一起~

トロッコ電車と保津川下り (SONY HDR-XR500V+Canon HV10)

听着歌，关掉影像的音乐。。。看着~

Hi my fellow blog readers,
if you are a keen viewer of my blog, you would have known that I have 2 other websites linked in conjunction with my current blog.
Do visit them for a different style of music, and also, taste in life.
Take time and submerse yourself in the beautiful world.

www.dolly-jp.blogspot.com
www.versailles-jp.blogspot.com

读者也能娶我另外两个网站享受不同的音乐感受哦~
抽出时间，享受着美丽的音乐所在你脑海创造出的 完美世界。

www.dolly-jp.blogspot.com
www.versailles-jp.blogspot.com

Forsaken Heart

原来。。。我人生几乎所有的伤都是来之于我的父母。

他们说话真的会翻来覆去。。。而且，还抱着是我的错的态度继续跟我说话。

真的还是我的错吗？

那时说我只要做全职的工就能搬回来住，然后，靠自己来赚我自己的学费。。我也接受了，但现在呢？ 你们却说要我改我的态度。

我不觉得自己的态度有什么不对，我在家都很少说话，而你说我会顶嘴。我就是觉得有些事情很过分我才会顶嘴啊！

不要紧，然后，还对我说，叫我去做家务。我告诉他：‘我需要做工啊’，他便回答，做工回来可以在做！
叫我去帮忙扫地洗衣，然后妈妈就不用做了。

更本一点也没为我早想。。

我很不想怎么说但，我觉得爸爸真没用，每次都只听妈妈的指示。。。对错不分。

现在，我会继续在餐厅做工，做全职吧，想卖衣服，但想到车资加吃的钱，应该会不够。

回想一下，我搬出来后，父母连一毛钱也没给我，还叫我奶奶跟我拿多一点钱（房租），敢敢拿。。。还以为我没听到？

我想回去，也因为，做工回去家里会比较舒服。。。但他们不肯，算。

我觉得，当孤儿会更好吧？

以前，每次心情不好都没人依靠。。。都是自己，但现在不是了。。

而且，关心我的人是一个在网上认识，国外的，妹妹。

她给我的鼓励，安慰和对我的了解，都比我的‘父母’还要多。讽刺吧。

还有，我所有的朋友也不知道，当他们约我出去时，我心里是非常的开心的。
即使，我们只是出去聊天开玩笑，我心情就很好了，应该是因为，我觉得至少还有人，想起我吧。。。呵。

我的人生，不像一般普通人的那样，跟家人有着很好的关系。

像我这样，我自己都不敢跟一个女生在一起，因为，当她问起有关我父母时，怎么办呢？一定会很不好。。。
虽然可能看的一点远，但，结婚时，有可能有女生想跟我吗？没我的父母参加。。。

很多女生都因该有个风风光光的婚礼才对，不该是我的那样。

算了，别说那么远先吧。

好累啊。。。

Another ''hate'' of myself.
I wanted to go sell clothes at Jurong Point, in the end, ends up at Tampiness...then in the end, I cancel that job and continue in my restaurant...what the hell...
I think I really likes to sell clothes because I know how to match nice styles, but things just don't go my way.
Also, because I can eat for free in restaurants, helped me to save an amount of money too.

私は，ばか　ですよ～

Alice Nine New Single :「Heart of Gold」

New Single「Heart of Gold」

【初回限定盤A】
[CD]
1.Heart of Gold
2.Ray
[DVD]
1.Heart of Gold MUSIC CLIP
2.MUSIC CLIP MAKING

【初回限定盤B】
[CD]
1.Heart of Gold
2.Ray
[DVD]
収録内容未定

【通常盤】
[CD]
1.Heart of Gold
2.Ray
3.ハイカラなる輪舞曲(another version)

Nico Nico Alice Nine

First time saw Nico Nico Live on Alice Nine~!
So happy~
Of course, so glad to see Shou 's handsome face.
But, hahaha, everyone is so biased towards Shou and give him so much protection.
If I'm him I will be a bit shy? Haha.
In today's show, they celebrated Shou's Birthday in advance~ & also...their
NEW SINGLE!~ 「Heart of Gold」
Sounds so cool!~ Can't wait~

Also, I've snapped some photos in the process for my hairstylist to cut xD
Heres one of it~ ^_^

有些女孩子的外貌真的很美，但心里却没有那么的 美。
有些女孩子长的很普通 ，但心里却非常的 美。

我喜欢的女孩，外表，我觉得，是很美。
但是。。。

我认为，很多人都很注视外表吧。。。还是说这种东西是控制不了的吧。
如果我能睡一觉把你忘得一干二净就好，都这么久了。
而你根本不在乎，不想懂也不想管。
没办法，谁叫我自己爱一厢情愿。。。
想起我以前读书的努力和动力。。。还真是单纯+傻。


我妹妹的心呢，确是真的真的很美。


P.S. : 在我的新音乐器，按那个小方格写着’Video‘ 能看影像哦~

SCREW - 幻影の鎖

Too dark...

ROCK! ROCK! WITH THE LM.C!

ROCK! ROCK! WITH THE LM.C!

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

这张。。。哈哈哈　ｘＤ

我的脸不好看。。。但是，头发的颜色！～

 我今天看见一些能买的裤跟衣了，啊～下个月去买。。。还有。。。要存钱买～嘻嘻嘻。。

哇台湾好像每次都很热闹耶，最近有了‘野台同学会’　而且，ＡＹＡＢＩＥ　会出席，真棒。
http://www.indievox.com/a/thewall/event-post/7083

今天做工时，头部的一个部分有点刺痛，会不会有什么肿瘤啊？！
还是不要说这些让妹妹担心好了
Ｘ口Ｘ

What should I do in the future as my career to support family or loved ones?
I've been asking myself since before the 'O' Levels ?!
But I still can't find my goals...
Wake up! Stop dreaming about rock bands and stuffs!

...even if I did, I still don't know what I should do in the future.
Should I do diploma in experience and product design in SP?
Because I saw the students going Japan?
Oh my god, my heart is glued to Japan, screwed so hard.
If only I won't grow past the age of 30...and remain forever lower than that age, it will be fine.

And here I am talking off link-stuffs...sigh...
I really don't know what I would do or accomplish in life.
Seems like nothing.

如果我做全职的话。。。就只有一天能够休息。
每天　１１ａｍ　到　１０ｐｍ。
要赚钱换学费还有其它的东西。。。因该只好这样了吧。
可是我不会跟妹妹疏远的。

今天去做运动。。。哇，去了新学校，好像有6个月多没运动了！
中学毕业就没有体育课了呀。。。真怀念。。
今天在运动时，看到一对兄妹，马上就想起妹妹了 ^U ^
我想。。。如果我们从小就一起长大，一定也会像他们一样的在玩。。。
那位哥哥还会当心妹妹的安危，不让她玩，他觉得危险的东西。。。怎么小就会照顾妹妹了呀，真了不起~
呵呵。

→アメーバピグで遊ぶ

没有西装来跟妹妹的美丽婚纱配这么行呢？！
我从PIGG来了~！ (´^ω^`)つ

Last Line

I think, I should really start working full-time and make myself busy and tire myself out, till I cannot think of other things and keep using computer with anticipation.
I hate myself so much. Why? Beause I don't even have the courage to put up how I feel at facebook or anywhere else except here where no one will comment .
I really hope I can eliminate all my feeling in using computer to see anyone or anticipating anything, because in the end, only sadness follows me.
Whats the point?
I think my heart is damaged badly enough...and I don't even know how to let it take a rest...

I think I can be sure of one thing.
If my relation with my sister breaks up, I will not open my heart to anyone on the net ever again, especially someone from other countries.
I think I'm the one who caused the sadness to my sister...
I'm such a stupid fool who can't mixed with so many people.
Sorry.
我真的没有把你丢掉，真的没有。。我也不想把你丢掉。。

JS Photo Time

Its been a long time since JS Photo time~!
This time, it is the picture of Ebisu Garden Complex!

2010年9月に、夢人（Vo/G）、タケヒト（G)、インテツ（B)、KENZO（Dr)の4人で、新たに“AYABIE”として活動をスタート。2011年5月には、TOY'S FACTORYからのメジャーデビュー決定を発表し、世間を賑やかせた“AYABIE”。

そんな彼らが、2011年8月24日にメジャー第1弾シングル「流星」を発売することになった。初回限定盤は2種類あり、それぞれ違うプロモーションビデオを収録。ファンにとっては非常に嬉しい知らせとなった。

また、＜AYABIE TOUR'11『SUMMER DIVER』＞が決定しており、7月17日には台湾、7月24日より日本での公演も予定されている。

AYABIE MAJOR DEBUT SINGLE「流星」
2011.08.24 On Sale
■初回限定盤A（CD＋DVD）
CD：1.流星　2.Lilia
DVD：「流星」Music Clip
TFCC-89340 / \1,890(tax in)
■初回限定盤B（CD＋DVD）
CD：1.流星　2.Lilia
DVD：「Lilia」Music Clip
TFCC-89341 / \1,890(tax in)
■通常盤（CD）
CD：1.流星　2.Lilia 　3.MARBLE
TFCC-89342 / \1,260(tax in)

＜AYABIE　TOUR'11　「SUMMER DIVER」＞
7月24日(日) 高田馬場AREA
7月28日(木) 横浜F.A.D
8月 1日(月) 札幌KRAPS HALL
8月 3日(水) 仙台darwin
8月22日(月) 名古屋E.L.L
8月23日(火) 梅田AKASO
8月25日(木) 博多DRUM Be-1
8月27日(土）岡山IMAGE
8月28日(日) 四日市CLUB CHAOS
8月30日(火) 赤坂BLITZ

＜AYABIE TOUR'11『SUMMER DIVER』in Taiwan＞
7月17日（日

These days while I'm living outside...I can't seem to eat well and sleep well...I really want my life back.

Endless Journey. . .

I'm willing to wait for you for my whole life...even if I get nothing in return...
I don't mind tears falling every night when I sleep when I think about you...
I can reject everyone just for you...
I will just continue to love you quietly in the cold darkness...

NONONONO I can't waste my whole life!
So confused...so tired of life...yet...

『Let's dance in the moonlight』

I really want to thank probably 2 persons whom I don't know much for your blog 's music.
I really love all those songs, they are really nice...thanks Serizawa Nai & Love Kanako, Thank you.
I feel that I should at least expressed gratitude for the songs you given me (unknowningly), ha.

Also, last but not least, I want to thank Tsukiyo Murasaki for helping me to find all these website songs, thanks you so so much ^_^

今天去看恐怖电影，但是。。。我却在片尾时感到很感动。。。当一个爸爸，真的不容易。。

在游戏场所发现妹妹的行踪？！ 呵呵。

DaizyStripper - KISS YOU [PV]