Would also be attending one later this year....
Feels kinda scary to be honest....
How others have moved on forward so much and I'm still kinda struggling in life....
Sudden thoughts that I might not even be able to reach to that part of life....
how much preparation needed to even reach there....
All these thoughts are kinda heavy but also kinda motivating me to work harder.....
how much preparation needed to even reach there....
All these thoughts are kinda heavy but also kinda motivating me to work harder.....
It then seems like....that's actually one of the spiritual?....goal of our life?
Finding a partner....going through with the ceremony together....and receiving blessings then....
Maintaining contacts with friends and people that you get to meet in your life is also quite
a challenge.....it's not easy....especially when there's so many people one would get to meet....
I'm improving myself....
Don't know why but sometimes I would avoid bumping into someone I know....it's weird
(Something inside of me just don't feel comfortable?....)
Then again....I could open up and switch on the socialising button....and there would be no problem
talking with almost anyone....
But I guess most of the time, my button's off....
Perhaps because there's sadness in my heart....which makes me feels off most of the time....
I don't know
Would be great if people could have this understanding without me telling them....(hah)
So they won't find me weird or anything of that sort....(laugh)
I think it's also the small accidental things I've done, that sort of caused me having some of these
weird emotions as well....
Such as accidentally unfollowed and then decided to clear some people on instagram & etc....(laugh)
Maybe these kind of stuffs....plus as I'm kinda sensitive to the feelings of others, or sometimes,
I might just be thinking too much....?
Anyway, feels better after saying what I've wanted to say here....getting stuffs off my chest
Night.
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