It's been quite a while.....

My laptop has been malfunctioning, so it will just shutdown all of a sudden and having problem to start it properly again

I even feel lucky to be able to make this post right now


Anyway recently I'm playing Magic the Gathering card game after being introduced to the game by friends

Been enjoying it, liking the artworks and stuffs


Went to the MOE ECG department today for some education counseling, hoping to get some guidance for my next year poly application....if I do go for it

Do wish that I could get into a course which I would excel in.....preferably back into my hotel management course

Of course apart from that I will be thinking of other backup plans

This should be the last time I would try to apply for poly as well....yeap

So far all the beers kinda taste the same for me.....

And they don't really taste fantastic at all either, just taking to help for better sleep.....

到目前为止许多啤酒的味道好像都是一样的

而且也没什么好喝。。。就只是想帮助睡眠才喝的。。。。。

Dreamsprite.....

The art is so dreamy, takes me many years back when I first saw it.....

What is there to be stressed about......as a human

Being alive.....not waiting to be killed for food like all the poor animals out there.....

Just this thought alone is enough to clear out any reason for me to feel stressed

身为人类。。。有什么好烦恼的

活着。。。而不是像那么多可怜的动物因食物而等待着被屠杀的命运。。。。

光是这个想法就足以让我去除所有什么烦恼，有压力的理由

Been clearing some old memories daily recently....

Looking back, it feels kinda silly writing some of the stuffs

Or was I not caring that there would be other people reading them?.....

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还记得这只猫咪吗

我已经蛮久没看见它了呢。。。

自从那一晚，在我深夜回家发现它在一个角落。。。。

当下没有认出来。。。但想想一定是它没有错

因为它短短的可爱尾巴。。。。

但是当时它却不吃我给它的食物。。。。很奇怪。。。碰也不想碰

然后一直粘着我。。。

还过了马路。。。直到我走一点远了它才没继续跟过来。。。

当时就感到难过。。。。

然后也不知道那也会是最后一次再看到它了。。。。。

可能它是在感谢我这些年对它的照顾。。。。

在对我做最后的告别。。。。？

想了就伤心。。。。

很抱歉拖了那么久才为你写这篇文章。。。

谢谢你这些年给我的爱。。。让我摸摸秀秀。。。让我开心。。。

然后很奇妙的，在附近出现了一只好像它的替代猫咪。。。

呵。。。很亲近人。。。软软的很好摸。。。

但这次有其它善心人士也会喂它，所以我也不用太担心了。。。

谢谢你，花花猫猫

Gotten this playmat for 1/8 of the original price....sweet deal.

Recently visited the haircutting school I wanted to enquire about

Felt some hesitation still, if I should really go into this......

Well I just finally finished paying that big sum of money

wasted on that Diploma not too long ago

So money is kind of an issue here

But it's not that serious this time with several schemes that could help reduce much of the fees

There is also an apprenticeship program which I'm considering to take as well...

Though the salary is quite low from start....but somehow I think it's better

I would need to pass an interview too....

(  thinking.....thinking........thinking..................)

But other than that I still feel kinda uneasy....

It feels like the first day of school or something.....

Full of dreadfulness....and can't wait to go back home

(  sigh ......  )

Feels stressful....

It's sad scrolling through facebook newsfeed, and see posts by PETA.....

About animals that are badly treated....sent for slaughter....

Makes me feel sad every night..... every now and then......

Leaves me with a heavy heart every time I see something like these.....

The look on those animal faces.... many times now, I couldn't even bear myself to see some videos

Besides promising myself to consume less meat, and sometimes expressing subtle messages to people regarding these issues

I can't do much to change this problem at a larger scale.... and I feel extremely sad, sorry and indignant for all the animals out there that are suffering and dying.....and those that already did....

I hope I could do more in the future, and the ability to more so

Or some day, someone incredible could do something to change this whole situation... then that would be really wonderful

If it happens, it would definitely be the best thing that have ever occurred in the world's history

Fatal Frame II : Crimson Butterfly・零〜紅い蝶〜

早前玩完了这个游戏。。。（松口气）

啊。。。还蛮感动的呢其实。。。

这个游戏虽然已经出那么久了。。。可以说旧了

但是惊悚跟恐怖的程度可说还是很高的呢

游戏音响也做得很可怕

加上这游戏很特别就是用摄影机这个概念来执行的

根本可以说是能让人联想到的一种真实感。。。

又或者能说是 事实？。。

感谢这个游戏带给我的娱乐以其知识

让我觉得更了解了一些事，特别是在神秘学这一块

像是摄影机这个东西，和现代的照相机，是大不同的

从名字中就能够取解了

还有就是相信关于地狱深渊的事情。。。

我认为在众多的民间故事当中，我相信有一些案子应该是真实存在的。。。

我不认为有人能够凭空捏造出那么多深奥又详细跟仔细的东西出来

所以说，

在这世界那么多名俗学当中，我相信有些应该是真实存在的（二度强调）

想想其实还蛮可怕的。。。

好想跟一个在身边的人分享自己所感受到的这一切与想法。。。

但很可惜就是没爱人。。。

最后想说的就是。。。

很喜欢 天野月子 为这游戏所做的形象歌曲。。。

‘ 蝶 ’

蛮久没去唱歌了。。。

刚好听到了一首觉得很好听的新歌

就决定去唱了

柜台服务员人好好，看我一个人还给我其中一个最大的包厢

可能就像是一个礼物吧。。。

但果然啊

好久没唱，真的有差！

高音就很难顺顺的出来

但是越唱就慢慢那个感觉才会回来一些。。。

然后喉咙也觉得好累，也不够气

但是我就一直连环的唱同一首歌。。。一直唱

感觉好好喔。。。释放大声唱歌的感觉。。。

表达出那个情感。。。

脑里也一直浮现出我对歌曲的 MV 应该是怎样呈现的画面。。。

好了，唱歌的事就说到这吧

大胃王猫猫

大胃王猫猫它好像真的不见了。。。。

我只希望它没事。。。只是到另一个邻里生活去了

或者是遇到好心人士领养了，现在舒舒服服的在家里居住

原本一切还很好的，直到有一天在它休息的组屋楼下有人办丧礼

我觉得很严重的影响到它休息的环境。。。

我也很讨厌这样的事情发生。。。

然后当丧礼完毕后。。。慢慢的我就找不到它了。。。

放在那里的盒子也没再去睡了。。。。。

蛮难过的。。。。

我还记得当初。。。

在我家附近的邻里发现它时

颈项还有着领子之类的

想说是不是谁的宠物失踪了。。。

还在附件组屋楼下看有没有贴什么失踪宠物的告示

但没有

是不是被遗弃了呢？。。。。

当时看到它我就喂了它食物，就发现它吃很多呢！

呵呵。。。好可爱。。。

接着呢，不久后

我就在对面马路的邻里发现它跑去那里了！

然后渐渐的，也就变成我照顾的猫咪之一了

它很黏我呢。。。

甚至想跟我回家喔。。。。

只是很遗憾我家人不允许我带它回来。。。

无论如何。。。

我希望大胃王猫猫你平安无事的！

可能未来的日子，我们还会有缘相见！

要照顾好自己知道吗！

爱你喔~（muack）

Been playing Final Fantasy VIII lately after buying it on Steam at a discounted price

I'm glad that I bought it....really

Because in the past, more than 10 years ago....

I've only watched this game being played at my cousin's house

And it really leaves some deep impression and memories on me

Even though I don't really understand the whole story of the game at that time,

I find the whole game so magical and captivating.....

Definitely knowing its a game with depth without even playing it myself....

As I remember its like a 4-Discs game?....it's like a first for me at that time

to know something like that exists

I would say even more so now.... haha

Oh man.... it would be a real treasure if we could salvage it for collection now....

Anyway, back to the game

There's so much thoughts and emotions running through me

as I play through the game myself....

It's wonderful, old memories & new ones....

I really enjoy those beautiful arts & concepts of places thus far

Even if the graphic is not like the present super realistic ones,

I could see behind it....I could feel how beautiful it just is....

I have not finished playing the game....

but I'm already starting to understand more about the mystery I'm not sure of....

About who is Laguna to Squall, and the 'Dream World' thing

Because I had only read about people's opinion and different theories about it,

many of which seems like they are not too sure themselves either

So I really wanted to see how is it myself and I think it's really interesting

If only I had played this game much sooner...

I would have been able to convey some of my feelings and thoughts much more....

With people whom I knew played this game....

Oh well, but I guess that's kind of how things should be

It would only be now and this time, that I would be playing it

(Ah.......)

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I don't like to say it....

But I think I'm lost in my life now.....

My current situation.... I can't give anyone happiness.....

2018 前に。。。

在 2017，23:20 左右

我决定出门找盒子给大胃王猫猫。。。

爬了10层的楼梯，终于找到了一个合适的盒子给它

赶紧就想拿去给它~

坏事是。。。雨却开始越下越大。。。

快下一整天了

看样子它很喜欢呢。。。呵呵

当然也清理了它一下

早时已经清理了一次，但还是脏脏~

很碰巧，在这个时候也碰见了帮忙照顾猫猫的阿姨

她人也真好。。。谢了

糟糕不知为什么我已变得那么在意这些猫猫。。。

啊。。。。。