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Today I went to school with my parents...
As usual, my mother always don't know how to say things correctly, keep rattle on about useless things...
I know shes my mother, I'm really in debt with her...but, she don't understand that I don't like my private life to be...said out.
Why did you tell those teachers about what I want to go Japan or I like Japan?
I also never said I want to go Japan now but you keep putting words into my mouth.
You know I really hate how you get people to be misunderstood about my real intention?
Do you know that when people hear how you said of me, they will see me as someone immatured? Which is really not the case?!

You keep saying that my thinking is immatured but I must really tell you, I see things so much deeper than you...would you believe me? No.
Why don't you just tell the teacher that, Money is the only concern?
Because you know its wrong and you cleverly use other reasons to cover up your reasons for me not to switch school.
I've asked you before, if I used my own money to pay school fees, and now I would like to change school, would you feel angry like now?
You gave me a direct answer : ''No''.

Just because I never say anything doesn't mean I don't feel anything.
I still considered about private stuffs that I think is uncomfortable for outsider to know.
I still considered your ''face'' and never said to teacher about you wanting me to provide for myself in terms of everything, even wanting to chase me out and find somewhere to live.
When I explain to you your intention you will just rebuke and say, ''I dont care!'' , ''You really still don't know how to think'' .

Ok, its fine, I will continue to make my own choice.
Now, I will still say clearly, ''I NEVER REGRETTED MY ACTIONS''.
Whatever the outcome will be, I won't blame anyone, even though you say that based on my personalities, I will...
But then when I ask you When?
You can't give me an answer.
Thats because I never blame anyone of how things are for me now.

I will still strive to the future that awaits me, without boundaries...
Anryl, I hope you will be able to come through this barrier also.
I know we will if we continue to move forward~

This space for now, has become my life diary instead of Japanese stuffs, sorry for those Japanese fans here, but I will continue to update cool stuffs as usual  ^ m ^

To A New World. . . ~

P.S. : Everyone, I'm not able to blog as usual as I want from now on....because...my laptop is confiscated and I'm not really allowed to use computer after withdrawing from school...But please come often, I will still blog here! I will always find the opportunity to use, don't give up on me, everyone!~